Tonight was the first time I’ve heard my little guy cry for longer than a few seconds. I was able to comfort him which comforted me but I’m worried his tears are caused by some diaper rash he has developed. While changing his diaper tonight I noticed some sores on his bottom that looked pretty bad. It breaks my heart that he is hurting and there’s not much I can do about it. It’s possible it’s something in my milk, but there is no way to know what it is due to the fact that the milk was pumped who knows how long ago. It’s also possible, I suppose, that it could be the HMF or the Pro-Pass. But again, it’s not something that is easy to figure out.
I’m figuring out his alert periods a little better and think this will help the Lick and Learn process. We tried again tonight and he showed some interest and even had a few good latches. I pray he keeps progressing so that he can come home sooner than later. I spend my afternoons and evenings with him, sometimes holding him, sometimes kangaroo’ing, and sometimes just sitting in the room being near him. Being near him, even in the NICU, is better than being home without him.